Friendly Forgetfulness

E called early this evening it had been a week since we last spoke, although every time we talk she seems certain it’s just a day or two since we last chatted to each other. Part way through the conversation… she was talking about my godmother and asked if I’d spoken with her yet since I’d got out of the hospital as she (my godmother) had been concerned about me not answering the phone in the weeks I had been in hospital. I had spoken to her twice actually in fact last night was the last time and I said to E, that I called her last night to thank her and that we had a long chat about dad’s new house. To thank her, E said? Yes for the card and money she sent me. Money? E asked? Yes for my birthday! It then dawned on my best friend that it was my birthday two days ago and she had totally forgotten about it. She was in her kitchen and turned to the calendar and apologised for being so stupid and forgetting her best friend’s birthday despite the fact it was written on the calendar in red pen in big letters as a reminder – okay it’s still after 10 years written under the wrong date of the 9th July… every year when she writes her calendar she’s asks me the same question “your birthday is it the 9th or is it or the 8th” and somehow it still ends up written under the 9th! You would think after 10 years of friendship she could get it right.

I don’t mind forgetfulness, but in the previous couple of weeks me and E have had conversations about my birthday so it’s not like it’s not been mentioned, so to forget it completely is just I don’t know… Anyone else fair enough, but this is supposed to be my best friend, oh forget it, I don’t know why I bother to continue writing about her, I’ll always have doubts about our friendship, it’s just not been the same for years with her, she seems to see me as some kind of surrogate daughter for hers who’s living at the other end of the UK who only pops home now and again. She keeps saying now she wants to meet for coffee in town, but what’s the point, because we’ll set a day and time and she’ll cancel at the last minute or something. Rant over, sorry if I sound like a bitch but my so called best friend forgetting my birthday, this year of all years is a little too much for me at the moment.

It’s been another busy day today, I have spent a few hours over at dad’s putting all mum’s precious items back into a new display cabinet! When I say new, it was second hand, long story but let’s say we hit lucky when passing a shop yesterday and the one we have found was just absolutely perfect for the space in dad’s new house, it’s almost like mum put it there for us to see! It came from the shop that took the old one off us only last week and the guy only had it in there an hour! The funny thing was the girl cleaning it outside said to us “we have another inside a lot bigger” we laughed and said “yeah we know it’s ours!” It’s actually better than the old cabinet as it has more glass so shows off mum’s precious corgi collection beautifully! (Woof!)

I got my follow up appointment through for the NHS Psychiatrist in September which is about right since Dr S said about three months from my discharge, the only thing is I have a feeling it’s going to clash with something else in the same month which I won’t know about till next month. Still since I am still planning on seeing Dr G regularly if the NHS can’t work around my plans with their Psychiatrist appointments then I will defer the appointments because I see little point in going to them when you’re not in there for 15 minutes at a time and let’s be honest they do very little. It really depends how flexible they can be on days and times. I am still waiting on hearing something for the 121 psychological referral, I am really hoping I get something in the post for that next week.

I still have some things I think need doing over at Dad’s this weekend, but then I hope come next week I should find I get to start spending some time back in my own home for some much needed peace and quiet! I really have some things I need to do myself, some places I need to go. I really need to take a trip into Manchester on the bus and check out the bus timetables! I am not familiar with the Manchester buses so it could be an experience! Yikes!

Finally I found out where the popcorn maker came from, it was a freebie promotional item from Lovefilm, trying to win back my custom so tempting me with a free popcorn maker! I’ll keep the popcorn maker, but I’m not going back to Lovefilm!