Talking Eases The Emotions

It was a rather busy session today in the therapy group. I personally felt more relaxed today that I have since I started the group, I still can hardly believe it was my 11th week today. As part of my job role I did get to chair the meeting this morning and even if I say so myself I think I did a good job, considering it was my first attempt!

We held a selection meeting during the second part of the morning and two of the three who came two weeks ago for the introduction meeting came back today. They where voted into the group, so we have two new starters, one will begin next week the other the week after. One in particular I can relate to with many of the problems and issues they mentioned.

There was one thing I did pick up from the two new people and that was how both of them still seem to expect to have support from there CPN’s when they join the group. I wondered and would be curious to see if there support continues when they join and if so I shall certainly be questioning why I was unable to continue seeing my own CPN when I joined with the Psychiatrist at the end of the month.

The afternoon session was all right. I found some mixed emotions of my own being stirred up again but I was able to handle them better than previously. I touched on the subject of the rocky relationship with my Dad but didn’t really delve into it too much today. To be honest I am not sure what I want to say on the issue. I took the chance and threw myself in there this afternoon so that I could get out what I needed to say about last week, and for that I feel better.

During the final half hour, I mentioned the issues with the friendship I have with E and I was hoping to bring it up during the afternoon but there was no time. I have promised E I will pop up next week with her birthday gift but truthfully I don’t want to go and see her. I don’t know why I am currently feeling like this and as I mentioned to the group I feel our friendship needs to come to an end, like its stale and run its course, but as some of you know I have felt like this for sometime and I can’t continue to shrug off the feelings I have.

One of the psychologists in the group said something about me in regards to E and me being part of the group and whilst I remember it being important and true, for the life of me now I cannot think what it was he said. God I wish I could because it’s something I could have given thought to, just maybe it will come back to me I do hope so.

I came home and the first thing I did was spend 10 minutes with Alfie on the couch. I really miss him like crazy when I am gone all day and I just love how he wags his tail for me when I walk in the house because he’s missed me too!